Beneath Swan Lake

It seems an odd place for a favourite coffee shop. It’s on the edge of a small shopping centre dominated by the branch of a major retail grocery store and the new office block or car park being built next to it. There is a small square, 20 paces by 20 paces, and the coffee shop backs onto a veterinary surgeon’s premises.

The coffee shop itself is somewhere between unpretentious, untidy and trendy. The coffee seems good – but I’m no expert. It’s on a busy road, with the bus stop within spitting distance and a church on the other side of the road. “Refugees are welcome here.”

It’s just a reasonable bike ride from home, requiring sufficient effort to feel deserving about a coffee once there. I bonded further with place when I took part in a working bee to plant some seedlings and bulbs – part of the floral bounty distributed this year to suburbs in all directions under the banner of Canberra’s Floriade  which was abandoned in its usual form months ago due to COVID.

The de facto manager of the working bee encouraged me to claim one of the half-whiskey barrels as my own – in the sense that I could plant it out. I check on ‘my’ barrel occasionally and compare it with the six or seven others. I must have planted my tulip bulbs a little deeper than some of the other volunteers because mine are slow to appear.

‘My’ planter.

I FaceTimed Pella in Sydney and gave her a tour of the various planters. Most of them are coming on well but one of them looks very sad indeed. I can’t help wondering what happened. Was the fertiliser forgotten? Did the people on the watering roster forget it? Did a volunteer under-perform?

Another lunchtime in the early spring sunshine. The wind is from the south, cold but subdued. There is so much traffic I can’t hear myself shiver. A bus pulls up and to my surprise there are a few people aboard.  I suck on my takeaway cup, trying not to feel guilty that it’s single use.

I try Pella for a catch-up but there’s no answer.

A single leaf is blown towards me across the red brick pavement. The wind stops and the leaf assumes the attitude of a swan on dry land – the arch of the neck perfectly framed and proportioned. Another blast of cold and the leaf roles over twice, only to reassume the swan’s neck position as if to give me a second chance. Three of four times it moves, until, convinced, I pick it up. It’s as dry as a crisp and it seems certain that it must break. Nevertheless I push it gently into the pocket of my high-viz cycling coat.

Having completed the shopping for home, as much as I can accommodate in my pockets, I head off. The swan is almost certainly being crushed by a plastic sleeve of dill on its way to our kitchen.

She proves surprisingly resilient. I reunite her with the water needed to complete the illusion, in a white cereal bowl.

Here she is for you to see again.

And here are her sisters waiting for their chance. It’s a competitive business this ballet of Nature.

Facebook is a friendly foreign country

Being on Facebook is like being away alone at a favourite holiday spot.

You’re very familiar and comfortable with the place; many of the other guests are people you Like. You have at least a passing familiarity with all of them. And just a few of those knocking about are by now close acquaintances with whom you’ve been sharing nodded greetings for years. And with some of that smaller number you’ve had a drink at the bar or a ramble on the mountain. Just now and then there are new people around who presumably have just discovered the well-kept secret that is your preferred bolthole. You nod a hello.

It’s a place one can still get to, despite the pandemic. No travel restrictions, no borders. 

But if you go there alone, part of ‘Who You Are’ will be unknown to those of your family and friends who don’t go there. The more time you spend abroad in that friendly country, the more of you will be hidden from their comprehension.

Where one’s immediate family is concerned, if  they aren’t on Facebook spending time there yourself may seem like a betrayal: one is choosing to be away from them. They will have no idea of the existence of You Abroad nor know the purpose or outcomes of your time spent there. Perhaps they are entitled to ask: “Who did you see? What did you think? What did you do?”

The force of this fanciful syndrome was brought home to me just recently. Alpha, who is risk averse, called me out for having divulged her Facebook and email addresses to the public by posting them on Facebook. This is a person who, advised by a close friend who works in cyber security, shreds separately any printed material that shows our address; and who, despite very little scientific evidence about the value of it, wipes down with a detergent solution everything that enters her kitchen. (Should you be invited to dinner, please be aware that you might be met at the door with an abundance of caution – a phrase for the times.)

Anyway, I could not for the life of me recall having transgressed in this fashion. So, like a self-obsessed archaeologist, I set about hunting through past postings on Facebook to see when and why I had committed this wrong.

It was quite frankly fascinating to skim what I have posted since I started on 1 July 2016. The first post was a long piece (hah! the pattern was set!!) about rural health in the Federal Election. [The five ‘Likes’ of that first post were from friends who are still spending time in our secret place today. You know who you are: Rachel, Viv, Anne, Denny and Steve. And thanks for the company.]

(That’s me down there – in white – at the top of Red Hill. The restaurant top left on nearer horizon.)

With the digging down I found reminders of a few special occasions and of many ordinary ones. There were everyday walks, cycle rides, and pottering in the back garden in all weathers but enjoying in particular the colours and the rude, unbridled energy of the four past Springs. I was impressed, not by any quality of the works or by insights they provide to my way of the world, but just by the evidence of how much time and energy I must have put into this Facebook anthology. I’ve been away from home a lot.

People in your network who don’t follow you will have an incomplete impression of who and what you are.

This includes members of your immediate family. There are seven in mine. One of them eschews interaction with Facebook entirely and always has done. Three are occasional users. One uses the platform but not for reading anything posted by family members. And two are avid, interested and Friendly.

So just imagine the varied volumes of evidence they must have about my meanderings! When they all gather to farewell me after the Last Post, they will have different levels of comprehension of me. Some of them should recall the brief moment when the question “How Green was Trevally?” gave the sort of insider pleasure in which one’s personal family should all share. They will have a more detailed view of walks on Red Hill and celebrations of the shortest day.

Fishy business to enjoy one’s own jokes –

Perhaps that final farewell should be in two parallel parts: one for those whose knowledge and understanding of who I was includes information and clues from my time Abroad; the other for those who knew me only from the personal interaction we had. Or those in attendance could be divided in two, as at a wedding: “Facebook friends this side madam; Busy People and technophobes to the right”.

So what did I discover about the publication of my wife’s email address? I had to trawl back to 26 January 2018 to find the offending article. It celebrated the news that Alpha had been awarded an OAM for services to music in the ACT. The post received 79 comments. It has now been edited to omit Alpha’s email and Facebook contacts.

Not long after I had finished this archaeological dig, I received an unsolicited offer to produce (for “a very reasonable price”) a hardcopy book in full colour of selected bits of my Facebook posting history. Perhaps it was coincidence or, more likely, a flag goes up when someone reaches back into their postings and some entity spies a commercial opportunity. I didn’t mind – in fact I bought one of those books a few months ago. It now sits on what used to be called the coffee table in the front room. It lies there like some secret repository of time spent guiltily overseas, away from the nest.

Perhaps I should stay home, locked up in my native country. But being abroad and alone frees the imagination, widens the view, and outreaches the horizons.

Armidale, NSW.
Fordgate, Somerset, UK.